I have a dead husband,

and I don't know where he's gone.  I wish I could say that he is with God, but I don't really know who God is.  A widow in Japanese means "person who lost the future" but I am living a future without him, for two and a half years now.

My Deadman has left many paintings, drawings, and scribbles here and there, and I want to make some kind of record of them.